Wow...

So I realized I haven't posted in awhile so I figured I would put some stuff on here. Well I finally got a new iPod since my other one decided to go swimming. I love it so much. I feel complete now that my music is just a fingertip away =D.

So much stuff has happened that I don't tell people about because I just choose not too. They wouldn't understand so I just keep it in. It's all good though. I'll be so glad when this semester is over. I'm so drained right now. I have a meeting with my second advisor today so that should be interesting. I think it's still snowing. I'm listening to Kings of Leon. Sorry, that was really random but I figured if anyone actually reads this it should be a little random =D.

I'm actually pretty happy with the way my life is going right now. Really excited about the leadership class I'm taking at church, I'll probably go read the chapters soon. I still wish I wouldn't let people walk all over me but that is something that is really hard for me to not let happen. Oh well, just a work in progress. =D

Puzzle Piece

So I really feel like an extra puzzle piece that just happens to find its way into a puzzle box but you don't know what to do with it. I feel like that hardcore. I just don't fit anywhere and it's frustrating. It's not really anyone's fault it's just how it is. Like I'm basically happy with who I am, I just wish I could find out where I fit.

I don't know, I give up. Whatever happens happens.

Was hilft, wenn man nicht auf den rechten Weg ist?

What is the use of running if we are not on the right way?

So it has been awhile since I posted anything I feel the need to just let loose. Sorry if what I say doesn't make much sense but I need to get it out so here it goes....

I'm scared. I'm scared of so many things. I'm scared of being alone, I tend to find myself feeling alone a lot even when I am with people but it happens. I am very scared of failing. I am scared of not succeeding at what I want to do with my life. Because of this I am determined to make it even if people don't expect me to make it.

My mom is starting to worry me. Her and her boyfriend broke up and she isn't taking it well. She is doing things that worry me and I'm not sure what to do. Maybe this whole interning at the rehab place is a good thing, maybe God planned it.

On a positive note, I am making a lot of friends in my classes. I love just randomly talking to people. I would probably go insane if I didn't have people in my classes I could talk to.

No Energy...

So it feels like I have no energy right now. Not really sure why. I had like three tests this week and they weren't too bad. I just don't have the energy to really care right now.

I'm loving my new tattoo. I wish my foot wasn't swollen though. It's all itchy lol. Still can't believe I almost passed out from the pain. Oh well.

I'm learning so much from Sigma House. People are actually recognizing me and asking how I'm doing. It's very intense.

Well I don't have much else to say right now. I think I'm going to read and maybe sleep...

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery
But today is a gift, that's why it's called the present

More Than A Love Song

Look into her eyes
You can see she’s crying out
She hides behind her smile
You can see the pain of doubt
And if you would hold her close
You could feel the brokenness inside
You would know she feels alone
She feels empty

She needs more then a hug on a holiday
She needs more then a smile on a Sunday
She’s not looking for you to fix what’s wrong
She really wants to know, really wants to know she belongs
She needs more then a love song

Listen to her now
Broken is a beautiful sound
She’s a little scared
She’s afraid of falling further down
But maybe if you let her know
And gave her just a little hope
Somehow if she knew the truth she’d come alive

In the end
We will learn
Actions speak louder then our words

Sigma House Recovery Center

That is where I'm going to be volunteering for the rest of the semester. I'm so excited but a little scared. I'm glad that I'm getting college credit for it but that is only a little part of it. I feel like I might have a chance to actually make a difference. I feel like this is a big opportunity for me to help people. I will be working with people recovering from alcohol and drug addiction. I'm a little scared because it's a big step.

So, I've been thinking about life and how much it has changed. Everything seems so different now. It's really strange but I guess kind of exciting. This semester I'm meeting so many new people. I'm starting to become friends with people in my classes which is awesome. There are so many funny/cool people. I still miss some of the people I don't get to see very much, it's a little sad. I'm glad that I get to hang out with some people more.... Yay puzzles!!

Oh and people should go to the MSU game on Saturday. 3:00pm at MSU (duh). Go and support Brooke!!

Tonight

was pretty awesome. Church was fun and I love our college group!! It was good to see everyone because it felt I hadn't seen them in forever. I'm so exhausted though but I don't know why.

Ghost hunters is awesome.

I'm a little nervous about tomorrow. I get to find out where I'm going to be volunteering at for Service Learning. I just hope I can make a difference.

I hope everything is going well for everyone else!!