I Want Some Books...

I'm so drained right now. Not really sure why but I am.

I was really looking forward to going to St. Louis but oh well.

I'm kind of lost right now... I don't really know what to do. I don't know what to do about a lot of things.

Growing up sometimes sucks...

"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."
~Albert Einstein

"Any fool can criticize, condemn, and complain - and most fools do."
~Dale Carnegie

"To avoid criticism do nothing, say nothing, be nothing. "
~Elbert Hubbard

I Don't Know What To Put Here...

Life kind of makes me laugh right now.

People are so dumb.

I'm glad I know which people I can hang out with and not end up feeling horrible at the end of the night.

I enjoy not being invisible.

I'm hoping for a storm, I love storms.

I love my friends...

Life

Is a dance, you learn as you go.

I'm definately learning a lot of things. Saturday was fun but I found myself having deep thoughts at random moments. I realized that I don't mean much to some people. I'm okay with that. I know I matter to some people so that's good enough for me. I'm thinking about double majoring in Psych and Religious Studies. Scary but I think I could do it.

I'm looking forward to the future and what it will bring

Blarg...

So tonight was interesting... wasn't really bad or good. Just kinda blah...

I have two tests tomorrow, Intro to Philosophy and Religion in America. I was nervous but now not so much. Luckily I remember a lot of crap randomly. I am loving my religion classes, I'm seriously learning so much interesting stuff. I wish I was taking Psychology classes though.. I'm a big dork =D

I've been having some deep thoughts lately. I am currently thinking about what my place in the world is. I'm wondering what it is now and what it will be in the future. It's quite intriguing, a little sad if I think too in-depth but mostly it's okay.

Life Is What You Make It

Well, Well, Well...

How things can change. It really amazes me. I also find it intriguing how some people seem to forget you exist, even if you are in the same room with them. How funny is that?

It's really funny to suddenly be pushed to the side. That's always fantastic. Especially when you've helped those people so much. Oh well, maybe that's my role in life, help and then disappear.

Oh well, those that matter will not forget me =D

Fun times...

Yesterday was a good day. Hanging out until like 4 a.m. was awesome. I was really worried that it was going to be a sucky day but that changed. I love my friends!!

Chris... I found that other card by the way. How's your butt?

Brooke... True friendship is when.... (you know the rest) I'm pretty sure we're like the only two people that would laugh about that...

Man I'm a fan of the dots today.... yay dots.

"You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you"
~Dale Carnegie

Life...

Is interesting and pretty fun at the moment.

I'm pretty cheerful about life at the moment, not sure why but I am. I think it's just because I'm really not letting things get to me and I'm just rolling with the punches. Shit happens... That's life.

Life is full of up's and down's, I'm enjoying the ride and hanging on for dear life. :D

Well I'm off, going to go read my Bible for my New Testament class. YAY!!

"I think that somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision."
~Eleanor Roosevelt

"It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."
~J. K. Rowling

MMMM Cheez-Its.....

So this weekend has been pretty fun. There were some weird moments but overall it was awesome.

Saturday was EPIC!! I didn't expect the game to escalate to that degree but it was so fun.

It is so awesome when people can just relax and have fun. It's cool to just be able to sit around and just have fun. No drama, no issues, no real stupidity. The only thing you had to worry about was protecting certain areas....

I'm glad hanging out with just you two isn't awkward (at least for me so I hope it isn't for you). Normally if I just hangout with a couple I feel out of place and awkward but it really wasn't. Thank you guys for that. You two are both amazingly awesome people. Dr. Who was so funny...

Well I guess I'm off to work on homework, ewwie. I just keep thinking this is all getting me closer to my goal...

Oh and by the way, I'm totally not looking forward to this whole week...

"To accomplish great things, we must dream as well as act."
~Anatole France

"Dreams that do come true can be as unsettling as those that don't"
~Brett Butler

Reflections...

I don't understand what's happened. So many things have changed and shifted that I feel a little lost. I find myself looking around and wondering how I got where I am now. I look in the mirror and wonder who I am. I hope I'm a good person, but I'm not sure sometimes. I'm pretty sure I'm loved but wonder by whom? I know I'm fairly smart but not as smart as others. I think about all this and wonder what other people see when they look at me. I constantly think about whether they are seeing my positives or my negatives. I know I constantly worry about whether others approve or not. I shouldn't care but I do.

I really can't wait until I get my degree. I really really want to start helping more people in bigger ways. I want to get my doctorate already. I'm looking into joining Psi Chi which is the National Honor Society in Psychology.... hopefully it will work out. I just realized I'm scared shitless....

"Courage is fear that has said its prayers."
~Dorothy Bernard

JUST STOP

Ok seriously if people are going to talk about eachother, people might as well have the guts to say it to that person's face otherwise just shut up.

Help...

I really need to learn to not let little things effect me. It's a really big problem I have. Unfortunately not letting things effect me is easier said then done.

I really want to drive around and speed, not always smart but it helps me think...

HOLY $#%&

I hope I never have to experience that again....

I Don't Know...

Yesterday was an interesting day. It kinda seemed like a huge cluster f%&*$. The guard did really well though and I'm proud of them. I'll get workikng on those ideas for future air grams. There seemed to be so much stuff going on and even though it didn't really effect me I seem to be at the center of it. Did I do the right thing? Should I have just laughed it off and not done anything? I think they're happy so I guess that's a good thing. Maybe I'm just being negative. I guess we'll just wait and see.

"They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself."
~Andy Warhol