Reflections...

I don't understand what's happened. So many things have changed and shifted that I feel a little lost. I find myself looking around and wondering how I got where I am now. I look in the mirror and wonder who I am. I hope I'm a good person, but I'm not sure sometimes. I'm pretty sure I'm loved but wonder by whom? I know I'm fairly smart but not as smart as others. I think about all this and wonder what other people see when they look at me. I constantly think about whether they are seeing my positives or my negatives. I know I constantly worry about whether others approve or not. I shouldn't care but I do.

I really can't wait until I get my degree. I really really want to start helping more people in bigger ways. I want to get my doctorate already. I'm looking into joining Psi Chi which is the National Honor Society in Psychology.... hopefully it will work out. I just realized I'm scared shitless....

"Courage is fear that has said its prayers."
~Dorothy Bernard