HAHAHAHAHA

Has everyone been to the point where they are so irritated all they can do is laugh? That's how I am right now. I just can't help but laugh at life. It actually makes it better. Maybe I'm going a little bit insane but who knows. There kind of seems to be a lot of negativity going around. Not saying it's bad or wrong because I don't know the situation but just pointing it out. I'll be positive now. I'm so freaking glad I was able to get know some people this year. I've gotten really close to some people this year.

Oh and Sunday I went to the Unitarian Universalist Church and it was really interesting. Just throwing that out there because I thought it was fascinating.

OMG guess what I just remembered, Tamagochis. Those things were so annoying. I think I killed like twelve of them. Sorry really random but I just saw a commercial for them. Tehehe.

Last Week...

Really opened my eyes to a lot of things, hmmm. People can still amaze me in positive and negative ways.

I'm SOOOO proud of the guard and drumline. I wish I could've seen the guard and the drumline but life doesn't always work out how you wanted it to.

It is time to say good-bye to some people. To let them go and do what they must with their lives. I can no longer try and pretend to be a part of it. They clearly don't need me which is fine so I hope things work out for the best for them.

"I don't need a friend who changes when I change and who nods when I nod; my shadow does that much better."
~Plutarch

"A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down."
~Arnold H. Glasow

"Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies."
~Aristotle

Last Night

Was really fun. My arm hurts so bad from bowling so much. Bowling five games was ridiculous, but it only cost $7.50!! I'm glad I got to spend some time with the kids from the youth group.

Ghost Hunters was really freaking awesome...hmmm ice cream lol.

Oh and funny haha moment, I love how I'm talking to the most random people right now. I'm not sure if I'm ready for spring break to be over. I don't think so. I've read so much and it relaxes me. YAY BOOKS!!

Epiphany

Well the drive didn't go so well... woops. Looks like I wont have a car tomorrow...

Epiphany, what a fun word. But I've had an epiphany over break, actually I've had a few. Some aren't all that pleasant but realizations aren't always pleasant. I don't really feel like discussing exactly what I've found out. I have realized that some people just straight up don't care no matter how much they claim they do. It's part of life, some people might actually want to care but they just don't have the capacity to care. They might care if they want something in return but that's it. This doesn't really sadden me, just life.

I have the urge to go for a drive and just keep driving. I wish I could drive until there was no longer a road to follow and even then find a boat or a plane to take me farther away. Just to escape for awhile and not have to worry about anything.

After Saturday we'll just have to wait and see what happens and where life leads....

"Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh.And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh.He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh.So don't forget as you ease on down the road"
~ "Trouble is a Friend" by Lenka

BORED!!

So I'm really bored right now. I could do homework but I don't really want to. I'll just keep watching Scariest Places on Earth... Dun Dun Dun

Well that just ruined my day, why did I have to check that? GRRNESS

Last night was pretty fun. The movie was hillarious. I was a little worried during the day about things but everything turned out good which is really awesome.

It's going to be weird not having church on Wednesday but hopefully I'll get to see the youth group kids anyways lol.

Don't know what I'm going to do about Thursday or Saturday....

"It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not."
~ James Gordon

BLAH!!

Who knew one week could be so draining? Once again I'm so glad to be on break. I don't really have any plans for break. Except for possibly Wednesday... hopefully I'll get to go bowling with the awesome youth group from church!!! So I'm really sad that Natasha Richardson died. I'm watching "The Parent Trap" right now and it's saddening. That and another event makes me realize how precious life is....

I don't know what I'm going to say but hopefully the person will appreciate the thought and the effort.... We'll see.

Quote time:
"I'm going to come over there, smack you, and tell you to go to your bed"
~Chris Williams

Yum Decorative Icing

So church tonight was really fun and McDonald's was pretty exciting. I'm excited for this cookie cake. Ghost Hunters is awesome. This is really random. I think I'm going to take a break from some things for awhile. Some things are just starting to irritate me so I'm just gonna take a break for a little bit. I'll still talk to some people....

Oh and it's really funny what people say when they don't think you'll find out.... it's funny. It really makes me laugh. Oh well, off to play with icing.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

That's Nice...

That's really nice.... Tonight was interesting.... found out some interesting things..... I'm just sitting here listening to Chris help Brooke with her homework.... I want to smack some people though.... oh well... I guess some people don't know me as well as the would like to pretend they do

The Future...

Is scary but exciting. I'm working out my schedule for the summer and fall and it is really intense. Today was a really weird day... I also realize I have three tests this week, ewwie. I'm looking forward to a lot of sleeping over spring break, yayness.

By the way Lenka is freakin awesome!!

"Thanks for bein' you.Thanks for bein’ all things I had to say goodbye to. Im over bein' lied to. Im over bein’ pushed into the person that you want me to become."
~"Bring Me Down" by Lenka

This Weekend

was really interesting. Parts were fun other parts just annoyed the hell out of me. I think Friday was probably my favorite. Yay for getting in the hot tub for the first time since middle school. I'm glad there are certain people I feel comfortable enough to do that with and I wasn't disappointed ;D. I like getting to know people better, even though I've realized I have drifted away from some people. It happens. I am loving college right now. Everything seems to be going pretty well. There things that still bother me or annoy me but I can't really do anything about. Well I'm off to do some reading. YAY!!

Wowness...

All I'm going to say is wow...

People make me giggle in good and bad ways. YAY

Changes...

I think it's interesting to think about how things have changed. Evaluating whether those changes are good or bad is tricky. I believe it depends on where you are in life. You might think ithe changes are horrible but then looking back a few days, weeks, months, or even years can make it appear amazing. I've come to terms with things that have happened in my life and have realized that I can't change what happened. I can embrace what happened and move on. I'm tired of trying to hold on to all the negative.

I find it funny how people can be blinded by happiness, is that a good thing or a bad thing? On one hand they are happy but on the other hand they ignore everything. I don't really know, I just know it's intriguing.

"I will never be, I will never be you, no I will always be, I will always be me, that I know But oh, even though I'm happy being me I want to get away from all this harsh reality, oh Gimme a break, a little escape I am so tired of being me I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different Anything I'm not"
Anything I'm Not by Lenka

Funny

Last night was really awesome. I don't really know what to think about the movie but that's just me. I think I kept laughing at inappropriate moments. Fazzoli's was pretty funny. Andy's was awesome. Going to Chris' to watch Major Payne was great. Such a classic movie.

So life is interesting right now. I don't really know what to say or think about it. I'm very uncertain about the future. I do know one thing, I am determined to make something of myself. I'm not going to sit around and let people do things for me, I will make things happen for myself and I will be successful. I also established I really don't care what some people think. I am who and I am and everyone else can deal with it.

I love my friends

So...

Last night was really fun. I love the girls in the youth group. I'm glad it was fun and drama free lol. :D

I'm still wishing I could fix everyone's problems

Looking through a blur of tears...

So I'm crying right now but not for myself. I am pretty happy right now but I cry for others...

I cry those who can't cry for themselves; either because they don't want to, they don't have the strength, or they don't see the point.

I cry for my friends who have experienced or are experiencing pain. I weep for those who matter. I wish I could steal your pain away but I don't know if I am strong enough to handle what those of you are going through.

I cry for my own weaknesses and inability to take your pain or carry it.

I cry for all your problems for no problem is too small for me to weep for.

I let myself cry and am relieved to know I feel your sadness. It truly shows you all matter to me. My heart breaks while it grows. My heart may be in pieces but the pieces grow.

I cry with hope; I hope you all have all the happiness in the world. Rejoice in knowing that all who read this have affected my life somehow; you have not gone through the world unnoticed.

I love you guys.

(I really don't know where this came from and I'm sorry if it's depressing but I felt that I needed to put this out there)