Yesterday

was pretty much amazing. Even though I have a horrible sun burn. I have lovely raccoon eyes going on. Hurts pretty bad but it's my fault for sitting outside or like 5 or 6 hrs in straight sunlight without sunscreen. Summer classes start tomorrow... crap.

Golden Girls and Scrubs

always make me laugh. Today was pretty rough but those shows made it all better. Boredome can be a scary thing. I think too much when I'm bored. Summer classes start Monday... I'm actually glad I'm taking them because I'm thinking about the future. I honestly don't really care. It might suck now but hey it's all good. It'll all be worth it in the end. Soon I'll be Dr. Lindsay McFarland. HA! How scary is that? hehe.

I've realized I'm lucky to know exactly what I want to do with my life, now it's just a matter of getting there.

Mythbusters

So I'm watching Mythbusters right now and it's hillarious. They're tested the theory of beer goggles. HEHE, the last episode involved banana peels and lubricant.... yeah weird but sooo funny.

This week has been such a hard week for me, but not in the usual way. I had a lot of fun. Watching softball games, making chocolate covered oreos, driving around aimlessly, it has all been pretty awesome. However, I find myself constantly on edge. Everything is getting to me lately. A lot is getting on my nerves and I find myself wanting to snap and go off but keep my mouth shut because I believe I'm just cranky. IDK, maybe I'm just PMSing.

I want to watch some fireworks....

So...

Things are interesting right now. Some days have been more stressful than others but I can't really complain too much. It's been a weird couple of days... I'm really excited for tomorrow and thursday though.

Does anyone ever have those moments where you suddenly feel completely out of place?

TORN!!!

So torn, GRRRRRRRRR

Church

I guess I'm going to church tonight because I didn't really know people were actually going to the countdown thing but oh well. Wouldn't be the first time this has happened. Oh well, I'm going to stay in a good mood damnit. I have to give Stephen his Oreos. I'm done with finals and I sold my books back and now I have a few weeks to relax before summer classes. All things considered I'm a pretty happy person.

I'm torn....

I'd Rather...

Have the swine flu then take finals... LOL, I saw a piece of flair that said that and I just had to share it. 4 finals down, one more to go. After tomorrow I'll be done and my brain will be all mushy. But tomorrow is Wednesday which means CHURCH!! I gotta go to Walmart and buy some oreos though... I hope everyone has fun at the band banquet tonight. Well I'm off to Walmart, keep smiling =D

Lost

That is what I am with a capital L. No idea what's going on but oh well. I guess I'll just go back to messing with my sister's dog (okay random but I had to say I had a dyslexic moment there and typed god... twice). I'll probably also studying for another final. 2 down, 3 to go.

Anger

First I just want to say you two are f'in amazing so just deal with it. No matter what you two think it's freaking true. I don't care if you think I'm just saying it. It's what I believe. You two just don't even realize how incredible you both are and it really makes me upset when you two doubt it.

I want to fix everything. I realized that last night. I have this urge to try and fix everything. It kills me when I know there is nothing I can do to fix it. I would do anything to fix or help whatever people are going through. To make everything all better. To make them happy even though I know there isn't a thing I can do about it. I hate feeling helpless. I felt so helpless. I didn't know what to say but then I did but didn't think I should say them. Is it really my place? Should I sit back and let people fix their own problems or step in? This is why I'm going into pyschology, at least I know that I'm allowed to tell those people what's wrong and what is going on and help them fix it.

I would give anything to be able to fix the problems of those I care about. Everything I have I would give. Hell, I would even give up music and reading and those who know me know how much those thing mean to me. I would willing take on their unhappiness just so they would laugh and smile and laugh again.

There are few things worse than wanting to do something, anything to help and not being able to do anything.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.

The stars are so big, the earth so small, stay as you are.

Scheduling

for two different schools really sucks. Good thing I'll probably only deal with this once.

This weekend was pretty awesome. Saturday was amazing. I think I pulled a muscle in my leg though because going up and down stairs suck!!! And it's so awesome that all my classes are on the 2nd floor of the buildings. Yay for using a laptop as a heating pad =D I'm resourceful. Well I don't know what else to say at this point in time except...


Who needs boys when you have allergies? ;D

So

I'm sitting here pretty bored thinking about life.

I'm still covered in glitter. It was so fun helping Brooke get ready for prom. Of course Brooke looked hot ;). Sparkly clear? I hope everyone has an awesome time.

Sometimes I wish things were different. I wish I was different. But not completely different. I think my problem is I always wonder what people think when they see me or hangout with me. I guess I'm just a very curious person.

It's not all bad though. I've had some really great moments. Moments that I wish I could capture and put in a box to keep so when I needed a pick me up, it would be there.

Oh well, happy thoughts. =D