Revelation

What do you do when you look around and realize your life isn't what you expected it to be? You look around and things that you thought would stay the same are suddenly totally different. Things you thought were going to be different are really the same. People that you thought were always going to be there aren't and those you thought would never be there are always there. It is really strange and slightly scary. You realize your dreams have changed, your thoughts have changed, and everything you thought you wanted does not matter. It's like coming to a cross road only not. A cross road has two clear options, you either go one way or the other. This is more like standing in front of the flight departure board at an airport. Where shall I go? Bangkok, Beijing, Egypt, London, Paris, Italy? So many choices, how can you ever know which one is right? It's like when you realize life isn't what you expected. You can change it, let it keep going, re-evaluate, change some things, drop things, or just simply not care. I'm not sure which way is right or whether or not it will actually be a good thing or whether it will be easy. All I know is that there's no way to go but forward.

"The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want."
-Ben Stein

"Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you."
-Wally "Famous" Amos