I feel....

like my whole life has changed in a week. I've never had anything impact me like this last week has. I can't remember ever crying so much but not being sad about it. Meeting so many people and being to share such an intense experience with was.... there isn't even a word for it. There moments when I wondered why I decided to come, but then later that day something would happen and I would realize that there was a reason for me coming. It wasn't what I expected at all. It was so much different than my expectations. I felt so close to people I barely even knew. I want to go back so bad, I want to just escape back there. You are basically cut off from the world and I loved it so much. I actually felt like I made a difference. Who knew a bunch of middle schoolers could impact my life so much.

It was such a roller coaster. There were moments I felt so out of place it killed me and then other times I just felt like I was home. It was strange the places I felt most at peace or at home. I didn't think I would miss it as much as I am. I managed to get pretty close with some of the kids and I was not expecting that.

Now I'm back to the real world and it kinda sucks. I don't know what to do about certain things but I just have faith that things will work out as they should. I don't understand some people at all, I just want to scream at the top of my lungs but I know it wont help. I'll just accept that that is they way they are and keep loving them.

I wanna go back....