Yay Ghetto Rigging...

Today was pretty fun. Stats is really going to stress me out but luckily I made some friends in that class. One of them is really smart so that is definately a plus. I really love meeting new people.

I really miss some people. I didn't really realize how much I would miss them. Some of the people I miss aren't even out of town but I just don't get to see them which sucks.

I'm nervous for Tuesday.....

Oh so the whole ghetto rigging thing... Skyler and I hooked up my iPod dock to my speakers that used to be on my computer and it was epic. 4 speakers and a sub hooked up to my iPod equals floor shaking music.

"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

So

I think I'm going to like my classes this semester. The only class I'm a little worried about is Stats because my teacher is Chinese and it's hard to understand her. I'm excited because I might get to participate in Citizenship and Service Learning this semester. Basically I'll go to a non-profit or government orginization and do some volunteer work but receive a grade and college credit for it. I'll get to work with Psychologists in the REAL WORLD. I also want to actually interact with people. I want to actually experience what I want to do rather than just learning about it. It will be almost like an internship. Hopefully I'll actually feel like I'm making a difference.

Escaping

I find myself doing a lot of that lately. Basically all I do right now is listen to my iPod. I don't really know why but I just keep feeling like I need to escape so I just turn on my iPod and zone out for awhile. I guess it's almost like meditation. Hopefully actually starting school will help.

Next weekend I get to see my baby niece that I haven't seen since she was born. I also get to see family members that I either haven't seen since Christmas, Graduation, or I can't remember the last time I saw them. It's really strange to think about.

I really don't know what to think about life right now. The only way I can think to describe it is blah....

You’ve been known to obsess over the future
Do you think you’ll get away from the past?
As you starve yourself just to make it through ‘til midnight
Consider what you might have found.
You think you’ve got a good thing now.

I found God in a catalytic converter
In Topeka on a Monday night.
Every saint has a past, every sinner has a future
So you know it keeps me hanging around.
No, you can’t keep a good man down.

School

I'm actually so excited for school to start again for many reasons. I feel like school is my escape. As weird as that sounds, I just love going to school and learning about things that actually interest me instead of stupid things that I'm never going to use. I hated it when teachers would say "You'll need to know this one day"... No I wont. Shut up, I'm never going to use that. I love college so much. I know a lot of you are nervous or scared or worried about starting college but it's really not that bad. All of you are smart and intelligent people so college wont be that much of a stretch for you. If you ever feel overwhelmed just remember that it will all be worth it. Just had to get that out there.

Championships were so awesome. I was so overwhelmed by the music and just in awe of everything. I really can't even explain it. I don't really know what to say about the rest of the trip though. Not in a good or bad way, I just don't really know what to say. There were moments when I just wanted to drive somewhere and go think but I couldn't. I don't really know why but I did. I thought a lot while driving, some of it wasn't pleasant but I did a lot of thinking. I realized I hate big cities. Even though Indy isn't really that big I didn't like it. I don't really like St. Louis either. I like the size of Springfield. I understand other people wanting to get out of here and totally respect that but for some reason, I'm hooked on it. I really love it here.

I find myself at a loss for words. There are so many times lately that I've found myself completely speechless. I just don't know what to say anymore. Man I wish life was more like my dreams.....